Freed by Him
Posted on November 21st, 2019
Let it be known to you therefore, brothers,
that through this man forgiveness of sins is proclaimed to you,
and by him everyone who believes is freed from everything
from which you could not be freed by the law of Moses.
Beware, therefore, lest what is said in the Prophets should come about:
“‘Look, you scoffers,
be astounded and perish;
for I am doing a work in your days,
a work that you will not believe, even if one tells it to you.’”
Anyone can be delivered from heterosexual or homosexual sin and behavior, just as from any other sin and compulsion. But deliverance comes only with choosing to remain in God. It comes from loving Him and dying (“in the teeth of every inclination” as C. S. Lewis says) to the old wounded, narcissistic self — that which wants to be separate and on its own. 
Sexual and relational brokenness isn’t the essence of our problem, but rather a symptom that shows our need of God. Our heart issue is that we avoid Him: we listen to that damaged thing inside that is afraid to pray, we let our proud and resistant impulses rule. God knows how to set disordered desires in order if we will put ourselves in His hands. It isn’t easy, but easy is an illusion anyway. Choosing Jesus delivers us from degrading, deadly kinds of hard and puts us on the good-hard, noble path of becoming. Remaining in Him simultaneously crucifies the old man and liberates the new. Daily prayer and active Christian fellowship are within our power to choose, and our Lord is eagerly waiting to deliver all who turn to Him.
Gracious Savior, thank you for opening the way of freedom. I do love you Lord, and ask you to empower me to put that love in action by remaining in You. Grant me the courage and humility to draw near to You. Strengthen my will to remain in You. Make my life a living witness to You, for I do believe that you can free everyone from everything.
 Leanne Payne, Listening Prayer (Grand Rapids, Hamewith Books, 1994), 226-227.
Painting: Meister der Schule von Nowgorod, 1360, Crucifixion [Public domain], via Wikimedia Commons
Meditation prepared by Sarah Colyn, drawing on the writings and ministry of Leanne Payne.