Notes for Healing of sense of being: A testimony
presented by Kim Jones
This testimony gives us the privilege of understanding more of what it means to have, or lack, a
solid ‘sense of being,’ and to witness God’s healing power at work in one unique and precious
woman’s life. These notes contain the full text and reference for the scripture and quotations
shared. At the bottom of the notes are resources for further exploration of this topic.
“it is when the unbearable infantile feelings charge forward that we minister to the suffering
inner child…Sufferers are at these times … back in the experience of abandonment with its
associated feelings” (Payne (1991), Restoring the Christian Soul Through Healing Prayer, 110).
“… we often find that the power to feel the pain is itself a vital part of the healing. The sufferer
has repressed this heretofore and denied it precisely because it was so painful. But now he has
to get it up and out. He needs to understand that, if he will stand in the cross and hurt, there is
a place for it to go, an end to the pain. This seemingly endless pain is the way he gets in touch
with and names the heretofore repressed grief, fear, anger, and shame, underlying his
depression…” (Payne (1991), Restoring the Christian Soul Through Healing Prayer, 103).
I will never leave you nor forsake you. Hebrews 13:5
“Another lives in me. My spirit is one with His. That is my whole place. All else is raging around
me and within me, but I can stand now, confident, and watch as God heals this part of me that
is so wounded” (Payne (1991), Restoring the Christian Soul Through Healing Prayer, 71).
Resources on this topic:
Chapter 8, “Prolonged Healing of Memories: Abandonment Issues and the Repression of
Painful Emotions,” Restoring the Christian Soul through Healing Prayer by Leanne Payne.
Chapter 4, “The Search for Sexual Identity,” The Broken Image, by Leanne Payne
“God’s Creative Power: Sense of Being and Well-Being” live audio recording of lecture and
prayer from an MPC school held in Wheaton, IL in 2019